I woke up this morning saying a prayer thanking God for letting me see today and in my prayer I said “God is Good”…. Is he. I look at all the bad things that happen to people every day and I don’t blame God for those things but I don’t understand what it takes to continue to smile thru the pain.
I’m only 27 years old but I’m tired. Some time I just wish I wouldn’t wake up this next time I fall asleep. Sometime I wish I could just go into a coma for about 2 years. I wish I could disappear into my own mind where things are easy and there is happiness. I want to go to a place where I don’t have HIV. a place where I was born into a live where financial burdens would never be an issue. I look at the children of the rich and famous and I wonder how it feels to be given keys to your very own car at the age of 16. How would it feel to know that no matter what you chose to do for a living your school cost are covered.
Some people are born into a world where work is a hobby and the bills still get paid. I live in a world where if you don’t work you don’t eat. God is good? why is he not equally good to everyone?