Archive | August 2012

Changes Changes Changes

So much to do so little time. I am in the process of trying to find an apartment. This is so hard! I’m realizing that even after being approved for section 8 finding a place is not easy. I must have a working refrigerator and range before section 8 will approve the unit. I can’t afford to buy these things. HOPWA offers a move in grant that will take care of the security deposit and any deposits required for the utilities but gas and electricity must be paid monthly. I’m working with an income of $221 per month which hardly takes care of my car insurance and cell phone bill. God forbid I want to watch TV or use internet at home. I have no idea how having a permanent address of my own is something I can manage with such a little income. My focus is scattered at this point. I want to go ahead and find a place and live like a normal adult with 4 walls that I can call me own but this is hard. I am in need of income, not right now, but RIGHT NOW! I’ve had normal jobs in the past but my illness has made it difficult for me to hold any job for longer then 6 months. When I start to work I begin to stress out and I see a negative change in my health. My t-cells drop my viral-load rises and I end up with blood pressure problems, unexplained stomach pains, and massive headaches, How am I going to buy furniture? What will I sit on? What the heck am I getting into? Sure I’ve lived alone before but I made plans way ahead of time and I had something to start with. How to I start with nothing and create something?

A list of HIV positive people?

A popular website has decided to create a list of HIV positive people. The list didn’t include any type of prevention message or education. It didn’t include any relevant information on how people have managed to live longer healthier lives, I don’t know how I feel about the fact that this list exist. I wonder why such a list needs to be posted online anyway. I know one of the people named on the list. I contacted her and asked her if she was informed or asked about being added to this list. her answer was no.

OUTRAGEOUS! granted my friend is a public activist and has appeared on numerous PSA’s and talk shows, she wrote a book about her life, and she has made it her goal to inform anyone who will listen about the importance of testing and early detection. Her HIV status is no secret yet this list is not something she would have chosen to be apart of. It doesn’t matter how open one is about their HIV status their disclosure should still be at their discretion. I blog and talk about living with HIV but my disclosure comes with a message to help cure the world of stigma, My goal is to cure this virus thru educating and informing the next generations about the positive choices they need to make in order to remain HIV negative. My goal is to show HIV positive people, that life is still beautiful and full of opportunity. I would never agree to having my name added to such a cold and ostracizing list.

What is the purpose of this list? Is there a list of bi-polar people? Is there a list of people with high blood pressure? What about a list of ignorant people?